I am sure that you know how it goes… just when you think
you’ve learned all you need to know about something you receive another
test! Well, that is my story and it
happened just last night! After thinking
that I had refocused all my attention on the Lord and His Word, no matter what
I may be experiencing that is in disagreement to His promise, I slipped on the
proverbial bar of soap and went for an unwanted slide! Now, while I didn’t actually go for a
physical slide, I did hit a little slick path as I struggled to fall asleep in
the wee hours of the night.
After reading a little, I bid my wife a tender goodnight,
turned off the light and settled in for a sweet night’s rest. And that thought lasted for all of about five
minutes! Once I snuggled into my pillow
and began to drift off, my wife suddenly became restless. She started an irregular pattern of moving
around in bed accompanied by sporadic, but somewhat regular light jerks (a result of the myoclonus that attached itself
to the Alzheimer’s)… and my night’s rest was toast!
My immediate response was to lay hands on her and rebuke the
lying symptoms of the devil upon her body.
Then I began to thank the Lord for the accomplishment of His healing. This all began around 11:30 pm
and by 1:30 am not much had changed and my patience was growing thin! Many thoughts were pounding in my head about
that time including the idea of tossing my pillow on the floor and just
spending the rest of the night there.
Finally I had enough, pulled back the covers and retreated into the
sanctity of the rest room. Once there, I
closed the door and began to cry out to the Lord (like a spoiled kid… very dignified… right?) I was exhausted and found myself whining about
how I needed my sleep so I could accomplish the multitude of tasks set before
me for the care of my wife and our upcoming move.
Then after a few short moments I caught a glance of my image
in the mirror over the sink and stopped short.
While I didn’t laugh, it was kind of funny and just plain dumb that I
would give into the temptation to throw away all my expectations and our stand
of faith so I could have a pity party!
So with that, I pulled up my sweats, which were hanging a little low by
then, reminding me of some of the Junior High boys who would come sauntering
into our Youth Group meetings with their low-rider look, took a deep breath,
renounced all the negativity I had spewed out and returned to bed with a new
resolve to trust the Lord through this test.
And to be perfectly honest, I don’t remember too much more.
The next thing I knew it was six minutes after seven and the
pull to get up began to take effect on me… even though I definitely wanted to
catch a few more hours rest! Obviously,
my wife’s restlessness must have come to conclusion and I fell into a deep
sleep for the next five hours! PTL!
Once I was settled into my desk chair I felt the urge to
open up my bible to the Gospel of John and to continue where I had left off a
few days previously. Jesus’ reply to the
Jews who were persecuting Him for continuing to heal on the Sabbath quickly
captured my attention when He stated: “My
Father has never stopped working, and that is why I keep on working.”
(CEV) And with that, I immediately
understood the lesson learned last night… He hasn’t given up on me, so why
should I have the audacity to even considering doubting His resolve and give up
on Him?
Then as I began to look at other scriptures that talk about
His faithfulness to us, I settled in on Hebrews 10:23 were the writer of Hebrews
encourages his (or her?) readers that, “We
must hold tightly to the hope (better rendered EXPECTATIONS) that we say is
ours. After all, we can trust the one
who made the agreement with us.” (CEV)
The 1965 Bible in Basic English concludes this thought as: “for he is true who has given us his word.” Well, that kind of says it all doesn’t
it? How could I give into doubt and
unbelief in the heat of battle when He has promised and repeatedly proven to me
that He will stay faithful to His word!
I guess we all face these situations from time to time, but
I sure want to experience similar testings with a greater confidence and
resolve in Him and His faithfulness that is driven by the unfailing intimate
knowledge of His love for me. Wouldn’t
you agree?
By the way, my wife woke up this morning with a slight smile
on her face and immediately began nodding her head as I read healing scriptures
to her! He really is faithful you
know! Have a great day. Stay faithful and in tune to His Word and
keep asking yourself… “What am I (really)
expecting today?”
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