I am not sure why, but the last few weeks have
been exceptionally hard for me. It seems
like everywhere I looked and everything I did reminded me of my wife… and
brought back sweet but very emotional memories of her smile, her laugh, her
encouragement, her wonderful voice and the uncanny anointing she possessed to make
any situation okay and in doing so fill our
home, and me in particular, with peace.
For the last 47 plus years she has been my
closest confidant in any and every situation that I ever faced. Whenever my mind was swirling with confusing or
frustrating thoughts or pressures, she was always my calming oasis. A few moments of quiet discussion with her,
while holding hands and looking into her bright brown eyes would set the storms
in me at peace.
But I realized last night after dinner that her
most-important-to-me voice of
spiritual discernment and calm is not available to me right now. That reality suddenly hit me pretty
hard. What do I do? Where do I go?
Then on the verge of tears I had to stand and
place my hands on my wife’s thin shoulder and cry out: “God I need peace!” And
without much other recourse, I sat back down on the couch and began to pray in
the Spirit as I knew that my words were not capable of praying for the right
concerns and might even prove to be detrimental to our stand of faith for Piper’s
healing. (See: Romans 8:26, I Corinthians
14:14-15)
After a while I began to sense a calm coming
upon me and felt a distant tinge of expectation building up from within. The rest of the night went well as Piper went
to bed without a hitch and I was relaxed enough to dose off easily and even
sleep for most of the night.
After a little rocky start, the morning today
began to gain momentum for me when I felt the leading of the Lord to return to
my studies where I had left off yesterday in the New Testament book of Philippians
chapter four. Verses 6-7 in The Message Bible
encouraged me right away by declaring:
“Don't
fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your
worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it,
a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and
settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the
center of your life.”
I really needed to hear that last line in this modern paraphrased rendition
of this verse. The idea of “Christ displacing worry at the center of”
me immediately brought a vivid and tangible freshness of his love and His care
for me and my wife at that very moment in time and place… right in the middle
of our dining room as the sun outside was breaking through the overcast skies and the
droplets of water from yesterday’s rains glistened in the reflection of the
light as it beamed down upon the grass in the yard.
The God’s Word © translation of verse seven
declares that “God’s peace, which goes
beyond anything we can imagine, will guard your thoughts and emotions
through Christ Jesus.” On a hunch I
looked up the meaning of the word “emotion”
and discovered that it is described as “a
natural instinctive state of mind deriving from one’s circumstances, mood or
relationships with others… as distinguished
from reasoning or knowledge.” (Oxford online dictionary) At that
point I realized that the Lord was showing me that without knowing it, I had
been allowing my emotions to guide me more and more over the last few weeks.
That thought gave me a jolt as I instantly
recalled our experiences of being on the receiving end of other people who were
being led by their emotions that blocked their reason or accurate knowledge of
our situation. Not only was that situation
very frustrating and bizarre to us, it also proved very hurtful… and I definitely
didn’t want any of that response in Piper’s and my home or in our lives at
this critical time in our stand of faith!
A quick peek at the original Greek definition
of the “Peace” that our scripture is
centered around describes an atmosphere in
us that includes: “security, safety,
prosperity, and felicity.” (Thayer’s)
It hit really close to home for me when I realized that “felicity” is defined as “the ability to find appropriate expression
for one’s thoughts.” (Oxford online dictionary)
Wow… we also experienced the OPPOSITE of that
definition when we saw the response of emotion without reason or knowledge leveled
at us! So yea… God taught me somethings
today!
First and most important was to get my mind off
of the emotional aspects of what I
have been seeing and thinking about in recent weeks and MAKE SURE that I have my
thoughts and life CENTERED ON CHRIST. That
direction leaves NO room for a negative response to the rollercoasters of life
and thoughtless emotions, words and/or actions!
And in that position… “God’s peace” is well able to guard one’s “thoughts and emotions through Christ Jesus.” It would seem that the absence of Godly peace
invites fear to take its place and thereby release all kinds of ugly thoughts
and wild emotions into the situations of our lives. YUCK!
I am so thankful for God’s personal teachings
to us through the truth of His Word… Aren’t you?
Have a super weekend, and as you do, keep
asking yourself… “Am I expecting God’s PEACE
or my EMOTIONS to be my guide today?”
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