I
was chatting with my wife while I prepared our dinner last Saturday night. All of a sudden I had the revelation that I don’t really know my place anymore! That revelation rather vividly splashed
across my thoughts while I arranged the turkey wings, carrots and mushrooms in
the pan before I slid it into the oven.
For a few moments I was stunned but quickly realized that it was an
accurate explanation of the un-comfortableness that I have been sensing for a while
now.
Once
I popped the dinner into the oven I went over and squatted down next to my wife
who was watching me from the corner of the kitchen. I took her hand and looked into her brown eyes
and said, “You know… for the last 45
years it has always been the Jim & Piper Team Show!” Since we started dating we have done
everything together. It seemed like we
were a team just waiting to happen! A
team made in heaven. We have always worked
extremely well together. Each of us compliments
the other. While we have witnessed other
couples criticize and complain to and about each other, we have had encouraging
words and have been the strength for the other’s weaknesses.
Over
the last few years it has been dialed down to the Jim and his quiet wife in the
chair team! As I sat there with Piper on
Saturday evening, I saw that everything changed when we headed off to Bible
School in Oklahoma. It was like heaven
for the first year and then things began to unravel. It became obvious that Piper’s difficulty in
remembering things went beyond what we thought to be the effects of Menopause. Then came the doctor’s appointments, all the
tests, bills, car troubles, and the pressures of full time school and work and
family matters.
When
we got home we returned to a totally new world than what we had left behind! Those next few years were very
traumatic. Our church leadership had changed and accordingly the vision
had gone in a different direction, most of the friends we were close to had
left the congregation, my parents passed away within a year of each other and
my relationship with my wife’s family took a difficult turn. On top of that, our kids were all off on
their own for the first time in our lives and the pressures of meeting my wife’s
needs and the mounting expectation of my secular job began to get so overwhelming
that I made the tough (Spirit-led) decision to quit the job and reopen my lawn
and garden care business in order to allow me the opportunity to have more
control over our schedule and have my wife with me as well.
First
and foremost though, the biggest change was that I no longer had the
encouragement, wisdom and peaceful, joyous and ever-uplifting vocal presence of
my wife! Suddenly I was in a new place,
with a totally new set of life’s circumstances, with the structure of our old family
and social network in tatters and facing the toughest battle of my life!
When
I looked back at all of that had changed I had to laugh a bit and told Piper, “Well, no wonder I don’t know my place right
now!” At that moment I turned my
heart toward heaven and simply asked, “So
what’s next Lord?” I can’t say that
I immediately received a specific heavenly reply nor have I up to this
time. But as I meditated on all those
thoughts that night and yesterday, I came to realize a few important details
that needed to be added to the mix!
While reading from the various renditions of the
Easter Sunday morning events as chronicled by the writers of the New Testament,
I became aware of the Lord’s trying to get a point across to me. Luke 24:5-6 tells us about the angel who
spoke to the women who had come early to Jesus’ tomb. He declared to them, “Why are you looking among the dead for the living one? He’s not here. He has been brought back to life!” (God’s
Word ©
When I quieted myself down
enough to hear what was being spoken inside of me, I picked up three
things. First of all, that I needed to
not be looking to what had happened in the past, for that would be like trying
to get new life among the dead events of what has already happened. Secondly, that according to Ephesians 2:4-7,
Papa God didn’t just bring Jesus back to life alone, but He also included you
and me in that life giving event. And on
top of that, He loved us so much that He picked us up, brushed us off and
forgave us our failures in the process of making us alive with Him, and also
raised us up with Him and seated us with Him in His place of authority in the
heavenlies!
Then came the
clincher! I was reminded of John 11:25
where Jesus tells us that He is our resurrection and our life. At that moment I felt great comfort, joy and
peace fill my soul, for while it seemed that everything may have changed in my
life… one thing didn’t… and that was
Jesus in me. He has stayed the same…
and He has been the ROCK and my
strength throughout it all and will continue to be so, well into our future!
So yeah… I may not know my
place right now. Everything is different
when I walk out the door each day. My
comfort zone and all that I have come to take for granted over the last 45
years has been tossed into the spin dry... But
the greatest thing has stayed the same.
There may be ever-changing shadows that are caused by the movement of
things in my life, but the Son of righteousness hasn’t shifted. He’s still in the same place of significance in
the sky of my life bringing me warmth, love and life! And you know… He’s still there for you as well!
Have a great new week
ahead! Stay in tune to His Word, and
keep asking yourself… “What or Whom am I
expecting to DEPEND on today?”
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