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Friday, September 28, 2018

That Was Fast!


“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.”

                                                                         Hebrews 11:6  MKJV 



I was thinking this morning while preparing breakfast, that I definitely received the complete package with Piper.  In every area of human endeavor, physical, spiritual, mental and emotionally, I feel like I hit the jackpot!  And then I understood… and now… in this new chapter of my life in which I have been thrust… God is not about to change His ways.  Hummm… I like that thought!

I was feeling a little down yesterday afternoon and most likely a bit sorry for myself, and began to ask the Lord to make the way for me to develop some new friendships… even while I am still here in North Carolina.  Then I began to thank Him in faith, for those as yet unseen opportunities.  After a while I got involved in some other activities around the house and forgot about the earlier prayer request.  Then a few hours later as I started to think about preparing dinner I got a phone call.

Well… wouldn’t you know how good and faithful God is!  That call was an invite to a special Homecoming church service and luncheon this Sunday as the special guest of the Pastor… who just happens to be one of the chaplains from Piper’s hospice group.  Pastor Randy and I had developed a great relationship over the last year and a half and I had looked forward to attending his church.  So, now I will be!

When I hung up the phone it dawned on me that that call was a direct… and quick, I might add… answer to my prayer of faith, that I had followed by thanksgiving as I believed at that point that He not only heard but was answering my request, earlier in the day!  I also saw that event as a confirmation that God was staying true to His word given to me a week or two ago about He and I continuing to interact… just like Piper and I did for the last eleven years (more like 48 years, if the truth be known)!

You know?  I would be hard pressed to ever question God and His Word when He declares that “He is a rewarder of those who DELIGENTLY seek Him!”  But I would also have to add the stipulation that His rewards come to those who actively take steps of faith in response to their seeking Him.  According to that same scripture, faith is THE way to please Him.  And as I have continuously stated, our active faith in Him and his Word is what kept us going over and through all the bumps and barriers on the road we endeavored to follow for Him over these last years.

So… while I am just beginning this new chapter in my life, I will continue with the same vision of faith and trust in His Word that has successfully carried me so far in this life.  How about you?

Have a great weekend, and as you do, keep asking yourself… “How am I expecting my faith to lead me today?”

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

NOW!


I discovered last night as I was sorta-kinda watching TV, but mainly focused on what I was writing in my new “Piper’s Story” notebook that I had felt the Lord wanting me to start soon after my wife moved on to glory, that I’ve been tending to think about much of the negative stuff that’s happened to us over the last eleven years and then starting to carry those thoughts into my potential future plans and purposes.

I saw something in a commercial that triggered the reality that Piper should have lived another 20+ years.  She was always so healthy, by far the healthiest in her family and usually within ours.  She was a very positive person, nutritionally minded, exercised regularly and as those who knew her would agree, was spiritually, emotionally and mentally full of peace, praise and thanksgiving unto God!  If truth be known, I feel very strongly that we were robbed of some of the best times of our lives together.

And as I am sure that most of my readers know, in no way, shape or form do I blame God for he is the giver and not the taker of life.  The blame rest squarely in the hands of the master thief whom Jesus Himself warned us about when He exclaimed: “The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” (John 10:10 EMTV)

But along with that knowledge comes the thoughts of “What could I have done differently?  What better decisions in life could I have made?  Did I work hard enough?  Did I always hear the Lord correctly?  Did I? Could I? Should I have…?” 

But suddenly… in the middle of all that condemnation I heard something familiar inside of me practically shout: “Whoa!  Whoa!  Stop that nonsense!  You can’t go back and change the past (even if all that stuff is true… which it’s not)… But you can take the right steps to continue to walk in the future I still have planned for you!”

What came to mind next was the remembrance of that cold winter night back in 1976 when I was laying in my bunk in a cabin at Junior High Youth Camp with my boys who had finally fallen asleep after a VERY active day, and clearly hearing that quiet voice inside of me distinctly calling me into the ministry.  And along with that call that night came a drive inside of me to always pursue His directions and always strive to do my best to excel in whatever ministry responsibility was asked of me.

I realized on the couch last night that the pursuit of that calling drove me to almost always have two jobs and many times a third on the side.  As it worked out, the ministry positions I held over the years were many times full-time in responsibilities but part-time in pay… which means I also had to work a secular job.  One of the perks of my positions working with children and youth was that much of the work entailed planning of events, writing curriculum and many other creative endeavors like the writing of songs, puppet skits and plays… which meant I could do that at home… and since Piper homeschooled the kids, they were all usually around when I was!  So, we did get to spend lots of time together.

But that drive also came with certain repercussions like many years of terrible migraines.  My older kids could tell you about my large collection of empty Excedrin bottles that I stored in a top kitchen cabinet!  It meant on many occasions, literally dragging myself to my secular job on Monday mornings after a busy weekend and late night at church.  It also caused me to get quickly bored with the non-ministry work I needed to do in order to support my family.

Looking back last night I could see that many in both Piper’s and my extended families never understood what was going on inside of me.  They never seemed to grasp the strength and power of that heavenly call that was VERY active in me.  But you know… Piper ALWAYS did and she fully supported and encouraged me... after all, we were a team! 

This may sound a bit gross… but I remember one incident when I quickly drove home at lunch from my job at Hewlett Packard one day with an exceedingly strong migraine and actually emptying my stomach contents on the floorboard just before I drove up the driveway.  Well, Piper met me and my very pale face on the porch, told me to go lie down and proceeded to clean up the truck... without ever mentioning it!

I guess that’s the point I’m trying to make here.  SHE KNEW… and we were in total agreement with just about everything we did in life.  So… did I blow it somewhere?  When I look at it from the point of view of Piper’s and my agreement in almost everything… I would have to honestly say NO!

Besides, Romans 8:1 tells me in no uncertain terms, that there is NOW… when? NOW!  NO condemnation for those of us who are in Christ Jesus!  So, Yeah!  I’m gonna be happy with our past!  Happy and blessed that I had the ultimate privilege of living 48 of my 65 years with the most wonderful woman in the world.  Happy and excited in knowing that she is NOW living totally set free from the devastating effects of Alzheimer’s while walking, singing, dancing and most likely playing the piano on the streets of gold, at home with Papa God!

And me… Well… I am rejoicing that God ain’t done with me yet!  My story still has a chapter or two to be written… and as before… I get to do it all with Him!  And you know… that voice that I heard back in that beat-up old cabin at Junior High Youth Camp all those years ago has only gotten a lot stronger and clearer!

Say this with me: “I am expecting to hear and obey Papa God’s direction for me today!”

Monday, September 24, 2018

The Way to Victory!


Yesterday was a tough one!  With Piper’s Life Tribute* running in our hometown newspaper, I got to interact with a lot of people, many of whom I had not heard from in years.  I still stand amazed at the amount of lives that my lovely wife touched over the years.  It was a joy talking, texting, emailing, or posting on Facebook with all those wonderful folks who took the time to reach out to me and tell of their thoughts and unique experiences with Piper.

But you know… at the same time the finality of the absence of Piper’s physical presence in my life was renewed with each conversation.  But once again, even in her absence, Piper must have thought about this as I was glad that I had a stockpile of napkins stored away for when I used to help her with her meals.  Let’s just say I used more than a few of them yesterday…

On the positive side though, every time I would talk about her with others or read and re-read her obituary, I would think about all of the personal strengths that she employed on a daily basis in our life together.  The one that continually popped up was her love of God’s Word and the way she naturally incorporated it into every avenue of her life.  She had a way of simply folding a verse of scripture into her normal communications that came across as natural as a person’s next breath.  And the reason being, as I’ve shared many times before, because it was just a part of who she was.  It never came across as judgmental or scary, but with joy and encouragement.

The memories of that joy and encouragement is what kept drawing me back to God’s Word yesterday whenever my emotions seemed to reach difficult proportions.  God’s word that came to me shortly after Piper moved to her new home “to continue” kept coming to me throughout the day and I found myself repeating my personalized version of Proverbs 3:5-6 declaring;

“I continue to trust in you Lord with all of my heart, and not rely on my own understanding of things.  But in all of my ways I continue to acknowledge You, for You continue to be the One who keeps me on track.” (God’s Word© & The Message personalized)

I read a quote yesterday evening from Kenneth E. Hagin, one of the main generals of Piper’s and my faith that reminded me that “The Spirit of faith is a spirit of victory!”  And I couldn’t help but to nod my head and say “Amen!”  I can see today that it was that Spirit of faith that Piper and I continuously sought to grow in our lives through our ever-increasing time in God’s Word in the midst of the last eleven years with the attack on Piper’s health, that kept us strong, in peace, with an expression of joy and a constant expectation of God’s best.

During that time, we regularly encountered those who were filled with fear, despair and hopelessness over our situation and I am so glad that we chose to keep our eyes on a better answer… the love of God and the truth of His Word.  And now?  Well, I have no better way to go than the Spirit of faith in this next chapter of my life.  I have no reason to doubt that if it worked for us in - hands down - the most difficult time in our lives… that it can and will work again in this next phase!  What do you think?  Remember Hebrews 13:8 tells us that: “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.” (God’s Word©)

Well… my yesterday is gone and I’m moving into today and forever with that promise held close to my heart… What about you?

Say this with me today… “I am expecting the Spirit of Faith found in God and His Word to lead me to victory today!”


 * http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/pressdemocrat/obituary.aspx?n=piper-kaye-berruto-canevari&pid=190296007

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

The Best IS Yet to Come...


“Jesus said to me; ‘the food that has and will continue to keep you going, Jim, is that you continue to do the will of the One who is sending you, and finish the work (in this chapter of your life) that He started in you, and is doing through you and with you!’”

                                                    John 4:34   The Message/personalized





I reached out last week to Dr. Catherine Madison and her team at the Ray Dolby Brain Heath Center at Sutter Heath in San Francisco, California.  Dr. Madison and her team were a definite godsend to us at the clinical beginnings of the journey we ventured into with the attack on my wife Piper’s health.  We took regular trips to the City every month or two for almost four years as they worked with Piper and guided us through the most traumatic event of our lives.  To put it rather simply, they were fantastic in their physical, emotional and even spiritual concern, care, respect and honor of Piper and I. They were like a ‘one-stop’ store with the reams of straight-forward and useful information they shared with us in person, on the phone or through email exchanges.

I have since received a couple of replies from Dr. Madison and Ymkje, the Family Support Therapist that we worked closely with.  I know that I keep saying this, but I am still amazed to learn of the positive impact our love and faith made on those that we had the honor to interact with during this journey.  I am almost embarrassed by all the kind comments, for in my eyes, I was simply doing what I knew to do for the love of my life!

Sometimes the Lord will use people’s insights to confirm something that He was doing in me.  For instance, the Family Support Therapist wrote to me that:

“I remember you both well, and have often thought about you since we last met. I was struck by the love and devotion between you. In my interactions with Piper I would always feel her authentic, wise and warm presence. Even though she had lost her words, she continued to communicate and connect deeply. In great part inspired by her, I continue to seek to connect beyond words, and help families learn how to do the same.”

I think the thing that hurt the most for me was when people around us would ignore her presence, especially those who knew her.  At times I probably sounded like a broken record as I constantly encouraged people to talk to her or even call her as I ‘knew’ that she still remembered and responded so well to folks she had close interactions with in the past as well as with the others who took the time to love her with their words.

Ymkje’s comments acted as the object that finally broke the dam and I began to cry after reading those remarks late last night.  It was like the Lord was using her words to counteract all the negativity I personally received and the disrespect I always felt that Piper had to endure with some people’s insecurities along the way of our journey.  To me, it was another confirmation from the Lord that I had done right and heard Him correctly during the course of the race we ran.

And then this morning, as I read John 4:34, I heard Him personalizing that particular verse just for me.  I believe that in some respects… nothing has changed.  If anything, the last 10 years has given me the physical and spiritual experience to be even more fortified to CONTINUE the vision that He established for me many years ago.

Okay… I’ll be free to admit that I may not yet have a clear idea of what that vision is… but I have great expectations in knowing that there is a specific vision for me to accomplish for Him in this new chapter of my life.  And… based on His personalization of John 4:34 this morning… I declared while looking at the framed picture of Piper that sits amongst the flower arrangements on our dining room table:

“As of today, I confess with Piper as my witness, that I am beginning to know what ‘work’ that is and I am beginning, under Your guidance Holy Ghost, to do it!”

Ooh! Ooh!  I am beginning to sense that old, familiar fire building up inside of me… I think some exciting times are on the horizon… and along with you, I choose to continue to say: “I am expecting exciting things from Papa God today!”

Monday, September 17, 2018

The Next Chapter...


“I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith.”

                        2 Timothy 4:7 KJV



Ah!  Sunshine… It finally came after the onslaught of hurricane Florence and her four days of continuous heavy rain and strong winds.  I can’t think of a better sign than that to start off my first blog post since the passing of my sweet, beautiful wife Piper Kaye a few weeks ago.  It is probably pretty obvious that this blog will begin to take on a new emphasis as I move from one chapter of my life to another. 

Since that first post on December 1, 2010, I have endeavored to follow the Lord’s leading to encourage and build expectation in the hearts of my readers as we walked the long journey we took and the good fight we fought for my wife’s total and complete healing from the debilitating effects of Alzheimer’s.  I felt the Lord say that this blog would be a good way for me to verbalize all the things that were going on in Piper, around us and in me… and would hopefully, be a light of faith to others along the way!

And along the way… I’ve had people criticize and disagree with me concerning some of the things I’ve said, but you know, let’s face it… this blog was always about Piper and I, and our personal reactions to events and experiences, all seen from our point of view… and not theirs!  But also along the way… I have received countless comments over the years from readers all over the world who have been blessed and encouraged by our experiences and walk of faith!  Thank you!

So where do I go from here?  Only God knows! 

Since Piper’s glorious home-going on September 2nd, the Lord keeps giving me the word “continue” over and over again.  It seems to pop up during my daily Bible study times, in prayer, in the Christian study books I’ve been reading, and in my quiet times sitting by the front porch window meditating on the events of the last few weeks and jotting down notes and memories in the new notebook I purchased and entitled “Piper’s Story.”

So, what does He mean to “continue?”  I believe He is instructing me to not miss a beat when it comes to the daily amount of the Word that I was speaking over and reading to Piper during her illness.  But now… that Word is to be meant especially for me!  Piper seemed to confirm that idea to me a day or two after she passed.

On that particular morning I had slowly swung my feet out of bed and sat there for a while just staring at the array of Piper’s pictures that I continue to add to that wall next to the bed since we moved in here in November of 2015.  Then as I focused on one 8X10 black and white closeup that I had taken of her in 1972 up at her parent’s house, I looked into her eyes and declared: “I will try and be strong for you today, honey.”  And without missing a beat, I immediately heard her soft voice in my head sweetly say to me, I want you to be strong for YOU now, Jimmy!”

So… here we go!  Where exactly… I have NO idea!  But, go we will and I choose to keep my eye’s, my heart, my mouth and my brain fully focused on him and His Word!  I have heard one call and do plan to move to Oklahoma to be near the majority of the kids and their families.  I love this place and countryside out here in North Carolina, but you know?  This was Piper’s and my dream home together and the Lord showed me this morning that this place is another item on Piper’s bucket list that she could check off.  I hadn’t really considered it that way, but Piper’s last house really was the type of home and location that we had always dreamed of!  So, isn’t God good!

So… Oklahoma is in my future and… who knows what else?  But I do know that Papa God and I will do whatever it is together.  And in this new chapter of my life, in this new blog emphasis, I’ll share it with you along the way!  So… buckle up and away we go…!